my cutie pie

she is always so happy when she wakes up. It makes the late nights with lots of crying so much more worth it.

2 Months from the Womb

Down

Today im feeling down. It feels like everything is compounded, and nothing is going right. I hope that this little girl will get me through.

Roxy the Diva

RLJ

Roxy Lana Januszewski

Born July 19th, 2010

7lbs 0oz

18 inches long

Little Less Than 3 Weeks Away

Well it's about 3 weeks away until we get to see our new baby girl. Lots of things have to get finished and done before then. We have to finally choose a name, figure out vaccine stuff(which to get?, When?...etc), get the baby room all set up.

Right now we have about 5 names: Roxy, Emma, Sophie, Lana, and Esther. We don't have any middle names picked out since it's hard to match them up with 'Januszewski'.

The baby room is almost finished. We got a crib a mattress and bedding. We are making a changing table that Lauren originally started in High School as a cabinet. We have converted it into a changing table by adding some legs to it and a wider top. We got new hardware to get the drawer and the doors to work. We painted it a custard yellow. It looks really good so far. We'll have to post some pictures. Other than that we are almost ready for the baby to come. Lauren is actually requesting from me to be able to already have her. She just wants her out so bad. I do too... don't get me wrong. There is still a ton to do before she comes, if not we'll be in a world of stress(I think).

Lauren seems to be getting more and more uncomfortable. I try to help a lot but I just feel bad that she has to go through all of that by herself. I try and give her foot rubs and rub her back when the baby is kicking a ton. I also get her crushed ice all the time since she needs to drink lots of fluids(Doctor's Orders).

Ugh, moving....

So.. tomorrow its happening... again. Moving. David and i just moved out of our old apartment a little over a month ago, and moved in with my parents. Now we are moving back to Provo because our new apartment is now available. ( We were able to sell our apartment one month earlier than planned so we could save money for a month.) So tomorrow it begins again. Im especially hating this move because I can help about as much as a trained monkey. All i can do is stand around, point to where i want things, and supervise. Its ridiculous. As I am typing David is out in my parents garage organizing our boxes so that packing the u-haul can go quickly and smoothly, and no, he wont let me help. If I am left to my own devices i try to do things myself... when we moved out of our old apartment, a month ago, i was in charge of packing up our bedroom- little did David know that in my head that included moving around the box spring and mattress. I was severely scolded as i pushed and pulled the bed out of the bedroom all by myself. Shortly after that i tried picking up our dressers, and all the boxes holding our clothes. Again, i was told i was being a 'bad girl'... then he laughed because i gave him the innocent 'who me?' look. So now i have strict orders that im not allowed to lift anything remotely heavy. Meaning, im not allowed to lift any of our boxes, or furniture. So here i am wishing i could help. Wake me up when its all over. Thank you.

Ultrasound...

I know this was a long time coming... So here are the ultrasound pictures.

I had to take pictures of the ultrasound photos, because the scanner wasnt working at the time, so excuse my fingers.

We are so excited for our little girl! She is very active so far and i assume she will only get more so the closer we get to the end. Im about 24 weeks, so we are a little more than half way there!!

Not showing yet!

So, it feels like i wake up every day expecting to finally be showing... but it still hasnt happened yet. I get tricked though, because the little nugget seems to migrate up a little while im sleeping. So in the mornings, while im laying down, with a full bladder, i have a baby belly. The reason we know its the baby showing in the mornings because its always a lopsided bump- The baby seems to favor my left side. But the moment i get up to look in the mirror the bump is almost completely gone, then i go to the bathroom and there is no more bump at all. Weird.

I can also feel the baby moving too. It feels like my muscles are tightening involuntarily, its a really weird sensation. The other night i had david push on my stomach a little while i was feeling the tightening, and he got really excited because he said that he could feel the baby moving too. This is what makes being pregnant worth it. The morning, afternoon, and evening sickness is not worth it until you can feel the baby move for the first time and everything starts to seem more real.

I will be 18 weeks on Monday the 22nd. Then we will have our first ultrasound 2 weeks after that and find out what the gender of the baby is. David is convinced its a boy, and of course i feel like its going to be a girl. So it will be fun to see who is right!

Baby Frustration.

So i keep thinking that i am going to get over being sick, and then it hits me harder than i ever thought it could. Last night, we went to family dinner at my parents house. I usually feel better at my parents house for some reason. I dont know what it is, but my body/the baby doesnt like our apartment. Every time i walk in i almost immediately have to go to the bathroom and bow to the porcelain god...

But back to last night, i thought i would feel better at my parents, i didnt. I felt so bad i barely ate any dinner and had to lay on the couch the rest of the night while everyone else had fun in the kitchen. Then when we left i almost made David pull off the freeway a couple times so the baby could take its anger out on my stomach. I made it home, however, and went straight to bed.

I didnt even get to lay down before my guts decided i had to be sick. So i grabbed my handy dandy bowl and had a good red faced session. Last night while we were driving home, i wondered aloud if maybe i am feeling sick again because my insides are moving around trying to make more room for baby. David thought that could be a good reason, but told me to not get too ahead of myself... I am only 16 weeks. Hopefully i will have something to show for all my sick feelings soon. Until then i will continue to be a heathen and bow to my porcelain "friend. "

Until i feel better I'll think of a few of the things that make me happy:

The warm days of spring and summer

People who are dumber than me...

And the pounds lost after i have this little trouble maker. :)

...Polish...

WARNING: Long post... sorry all, i got a little frustrated.

So... I am trying to be a good wife and soon to be mom and learn polish. For anyone that doesnt know, or cant read our last name, David is polish. Well his parents are from Poland, but David was born in Chicago... Anyway, he grew up speaking polish to his parents, and he also went on his mission to Poland. So if he wasnt fluent before, he definitely is now. The reason i write this is to explain that i feel its important for our kids to learn the language, as that is one set of grandparents primary language. However, im frustrated. Polish is hard. David laughs when he explains to me that Poles take pride in how hard their language is. David has taught me a bit, and i can generally understand when he is praying or speaking in Polish. However, I am trying to learn at home and lets just say its not going quickly. I'll just give you a run down of why polish is so hard:

1. Each word can be changed 14 different times, depending on the form of speech.

2. There are four (4) genders. (Four?? REALLY??)

3. Each preposition, and verb changes the ending of a word accordingly.

4. Not only are nouns changed, but adjectives (anything describing the noun) change as well.

5. The language is spoken in double negatives.

6. The instrumental case in english is simply a different ending in a polish word. ( Who the heck knows what the instrumental case in english is anyway... now i have to know it in polish???) ie: (english) I am taking a bus. (polish) Ide autobusem. Direct translation: I am going by the means of a bus. (WTF??? Those two words mean all that?? Again i say, WTF??)

7. In English we use adjectives to describe somethings state of being. In Polish adverbs are used instead. Now i will show you why this is difficult; because it just doesnt seem that confusing...but it is. ie: (english) I am cold. (polish) Zimno mi. Direct translation: It is cold to me. ( I wish that everyone could have been here to listen to David explain to me why those two words mean, it is cold to me. He had to break down the english sentence to describe why the polish sentence works. By the way, in the polish sentence, there is no verb, just an adverb and the indirect object form of I. Sheesh.)

Now for those of you who have read through this post...which i know is long... David asked that i put in the reasons why Polish is easy. So here goes.

1. There are only 3 tenses- past tense, present tense, and future tense.... However, there are two forms of each verb. ( So not exactly easy, since you have to know which one you are using -perfect form or imperfect form.)

At this point David is struggling to think of another point of why polish would be easy...

2. There is no filler words like : a, an, the, of. These words are all inclusive in the ever large words.

As for redeeming qualities, it seems this is it.

Now regardless of how difficult i know the language is, i still attempt to teach myself. This, however, will not go well but I push forward. Well i guess this is me throwing down, that i will learn this language. There will be plenty of tears, and probably expletives said in frustration, but i will learn it. I dont think i can put a time limit on it, but this is me making myself accountable. Thank you for letting me rant. The next time i make progress i will definitely put it on the blog. :) *sigh*

Done and Gone!

The first trimester is over... officially, im in my 14th week and im glad to be done with the first 3 months. Im still not showing, so there isnt a picture to accompany the post- Sorry! There hasnt been a whole lot of things going on with us lately. Mostly because i have been feeling lousy all the time, and david is still going to school. But being the amazing guy he is, he does all the cleaning, and helps with dinner every night. Just a little update to let you know we are still here, just doing our best to get by.